IDRIS, 23/11/1991
loves skate, photography and especially music
hate being paranoid
self entertain most of the time and
just me and my blog(: Oh yes i dance, drink, smoke and most of all i party :D
26 January 2009
Today i just finish my new song :D
and i did a cover of Tiger Lily by matchbook romance
for the new song its something i really wrote with all my heart and it happen to me, i cant really think of any words but i just had this feeling to write it down so yeah, so please please ..
enjoy and hope you like it
For tigerlily, cause i was damn bored haha so i had fun with myself, (:
and as you can see i can upload it to blog dont know why so i just put the link there ^.^v
Parker - Miserly Lies:
http://www.imeem.com/people/lYXNPO/music/O3uUf02F/idris_parker_miserly_lies/
Lyrics:
The blue moon says it all
rejected feeling cast down upon me
what i know, its a lie
i cant say that is alright
the lost bond we had yesterday night
dont say that im not enough
i brought love like no one did
dont you ever forget about me
so tell me how it goes
tell me how it goes
tell me how should it happen
cause i wont be here anymore x2
dont let the best of me
racing through crowd
struggling within me
forcing myself not leave
Parker - Tigerlily Cover:
http://www.imeem.com/people/lYXNPO/music/BF_YcPTz/idris_parker_tiger_lily_cover/
wahh saturday, i thought it was dull and boring day again
but its not, went out to shisha yeahhh shisha siott. golly birthday falls on 23rd jan
happy birthday bitch hahaha
:D
so so meet feeno first at clementi but i was late due to forgetting stuff to take especially money -.-
hahaha
well yeah then take train to bugis bla bla bla go swee lee buy strings
bla bla bla mimi was with us though hahah bla bla bla hmmmm
then waited for golly like for more than 3 hours crazy woman ndont know do what hahah!
well reached haji lane alrd
bla bla bla we shisha smoke bla bla bla hahaha
so gereks asap so many many
then hanna wan ibrahim leez was there
lol
and their friend which i dont know who their names is
yeah they shisha toooo and wan smoke 0.0 wow shocking when i saw him smokes
hahha
yeah whatever his pasal not mine
went to SP after that
fiqqo brought down deck i SKATE with him then he lose hahahhaha
i hurt my ankle pretty bad i think
but dont care la break pon break laa lol
anws tired alrd its like 1.21 am now
nights people suck balls and suck dicks do deepthroat like no other
good night
todayy schoool was okay, went for S&W only
yeah yeahhh superdalic mann then off home get cash and go bukit timah
play L4D with hafiz and taufiq, serious shit that place ahh fucking useless damn nabei kind of place to play that game
hahaha
well whatever, play paly play until fed up then me and taufiq play DoTa, hahaha
looks like i can pwn him siaaaa! lol
yayy
after the games chillled at mac took some pics .. shalll upload sooner or later i guess
hahaha
^.^v
now me got new number, ask me personally if you want it (:
Sunday:
ohhhhhhh yeahh sunday met up with hidayah gohh((:
she is short oh my god XD she seem so tall in pictures :x
hahahaha
anws accompany her to study on that dayyy, the topic was like chemical and stuff
its science ? who doesnt loves science hahah
but it was an advance science for me so i dont know much about it
hahah
yeahhhhhhhhhh meet at 6 pluss she was early ..-.- 5 mins only hahahah
head to esplanade library then chilled
lots of funny noises hahahahahahahaha
woots XD
then her friend came by i forgot his name OH MY GOD SORRY
gahh XD
he is funny i swear hahah abit lame but funny ? yeahh
who cares so yeah hahah
they eat long john yet again long john strikes again hahaha fast food = FAT!
hmmm the fat bastard with big tits and ass is there again like everytime hahah
he also one weird felloowwwww
hahahahahah!
well after all that decided to went home ^.^v
Monday:
WOAHH TODAY DAMN CB TO MY HOLE!
gahhhh whatever to ishak and rahman(typical malay teachers)
ive cut my hair? they like ask me to cut again and giving sacarstic comments
FUCK YOU two words FUCK YOU
serious, you fucking malay teacher have big ego on your forehead and like to make people lives more difficult
gahh whatever
the part i cant take it is when rahman punch me for doing something wrong but not intentionally
wtf sia i didnt mean it, people makes mistakes jeez im not born perfect
-.-
whatever didnt go to second class CABUT wahh confirm debar like fuck i swear, jeez so yeah head home with taufiq and hafiz, before that met up sasa "shen de ma" HAHAHAH lvl 10
well well he didnt like my menthol ciggs so what! hahahah he didnt buy it at last return his 4.50
hahaha
XD
whatever so yeahh
went to taufiq house chilled record my new song,
will post it sooner or later!
hope you guys like my songs XD hahah
((: take care
fyi im still hurt by what you have done
im hurt....
..... very much
hellooo earthlings
i wanna say thanks to some people,
thank you hanna bestie for like talking to me
fiqqo for like helping me in a way?
zuzu<3>
sab and nyemi(: my beloved friends, they hear me out and teared infront of them yesterday, well thats because of the liquor i cant control my emotion and stuff i just snapped i guess
ahh and taufiq hafiz gosh you fucking badots always make me laughh, especially taufiq you damn botak bitch, im glad to have you guys (:
i swear,
about me stopping drinking i dont know? maybe i will, im not sure. maybe im still not over her
i miss her alot been crying in busses not letting anyone know about it, but i know i must stop this shit,
the most sad thing ever is that, every girl i liked/loved said the L word and a few weeks or days later, they will say they like me as a friend. Kinda tick me off abit because
everyone wants to be friends with me only, i know im not good enough for anyone -.-
kinda depressing, and i have been faking a smile to let my friends know that im perfectly okay.
and PLEASE! PLEASE! its not only about girls, theres one more!! that i dont wish to tell because its so complicated that none will understand, sab and nyemi knew the recent story so let them be
whatever, but i really appreciate it alot when they hear me out.
yeahh
okay let me give you a diagram
; ?? (problem) + dump by a girl which crushes my heart so badly
EQUALS = ?????????? WHAT?
yeahh
if you know the answer good for ya well yeahh hmmmm
all i want is just happiness
i do have with my friends, they did give a little bit of ?? and ?? here and there, of course they did.
but sometimes when you have a special feeling and like this thing you expect them to have when they told you they alrd did and bla bla bla so hard to explain.
yeahh
i hope you get me, or not some sore losers passing by "oh this guy so emo shit sia"
whats that suppose to mean -.- you got not feelings
yeahh what if i have abit of girl girl kind of movements
whatever, thats me.
ending it here shall tell no further.
mari kita rakyat singapura~~ ahahhaah
i gotta be honest to the world,
i didnt stop smoking, i started drinking and its alot
ever since new year, because of what
alot of things
and someone have said something , and that something is saying that im a selfish person
i whine about my problems to her everytime,
"yea it always bout u and ur probs. other pple got their probs too. but they dont whine so much. sorry to say this, i do care, but really whut cann i do much? i see i can just do nothing except lending ears."
woahhhhhh so first of all im a selfish bastard i care for myself more than other people,
i guess saving other people guts is call selfish, saving people r/s is selfish
making people feel good about themselves is selfish, making lovebirds into one is selfish
sacrificing time for a friend is selfish, consulting people is selfish and many more that i have done is selfish
woww i really do think about myself.
you can do much you choose not to, you said the L WORD THE L WORD FOR FUCK SAKE
who said that! HUH! did you mean it?!?!?!
do you even care about how i feel
ITS ALWAYS ABOUT ME, ive come to you everytime about my problem because i know you could calm me down and just make it right,
i guess not you were just pretending to care like my parents
gahh like my parents! LIKE MY PARENTS!
one thing i ask for is to be pampered LOVED to be that guy you will think of!
NOOOOOOOO no one could help me
ME? I CAN HELP ANYONE, i know what i have done , i dont know if people appreciate it
you obviously dont appreciate me? RIGHT?
why do you think i share my problems, because ihave lack of attention at home
dont you get it ? ATTENTION !
you dont care about my feelinggs not one single bit. hurt me so much
said you love me before now you like me so so much as a friend <<< WHAT DOES THAT MEAN
is that a trickery or what?
maybe i ask for sympathy but i still get my fucking head up i dont go around pissing people off dont i. maybe i do im sorry
you said you wanna talk to me but you always reply 2 words .. how issit suppose to be a conversation if its just 2 words coming out
i know two words will come from my mouth ASS-HOLE yeah that is the best one that could probably come out from my mouth
jeez ive been good to everyone .. ive tried to do good deeds ive played my cards right,
what do i get
ENDING MISERY HEARTBROKEN SHIVERING HANDS HANGOVERS AND LOST APPETITE OF EATING.
im nothing to anyone RIGHT NOTHING NOTHING NOTHING! GAHH fucking useless fat pig -.-
I need a fucking liquor a beer or something
put some poison or something -.- die betteer DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE suck satan cock! AND IM FUCKING SELFISH REMEMBER THAT
SELFISH! SELFISH! FUCK THAT IM SELFISH!
I DONT CARE ABOUT ANYONE EXCEPT MYSELF WOW! WOW! WOW!
GAHH!
woooo alrighty then
had a great day i guess,
hmmm yeahh should be
off to school like about 11.45 suppose to meet sasa but he was not there as i was late hahah sorry dude!
well off to 1 pm class jeez reach met up with taufiq hafiz leena the usual, then off to class teacher didnt came so yeah i was in school for about 1 hour plus only and my attendance is tick into 1 instead of 0 hahah good.
got home chilled cook lil bro food and stuff then on me lappie watch Yes man
zuzu has been bugging me to watch it, so yeah woo i watch it and it has motivate me into another person i guess
im gonna try saying yes to almost everything. i dare myself! arghh
yeah but not to the extend limits. (:
thank you zuzu for forcing me to watch
really hit me in the head. ive been telling people that one choice changes everything, but i didnt quite tell myself that and keep myself above my own game
i realise that now,
well dont know what to do now, i guess ill update my blog skin hahaha
and i gained weight omfg man -.- fuck now _ _ KG fuck need to lose 15 kg if can, one month 5 kg? yeahh
and gahh my hair suck to my balls jeeezzzz hahah
about my life? family sucks
love life? i dont love anyone besides my close friends they know who they are yeah
and maybe i do like someone new? or maybe im still stuck on sya.
i dont know i can wait for you, but not forever. it hurts though, but whatever.
and i miss, mrs swan!!!!!!!!! hahaha (:
helloo hellooooooooo sunday todayyy
meeting zeeko today play guitar together hahah,
well yesterday ive cut my hair and it aint lovely i tell you
i look effing gay to the fucking core -.-
i hate it jeez make me look like laguna beach series people, gahh
asswipe auntie hahahhaa
after haircut went to cityhall met up with aie fiqqo and hanna
ahh miss them much, went off to penin fiqqo change cash then bla bla.
saw nisya bla bla went off to eat at kfc kecoh gileeee.
ahahaha
then went off to uob slack, saw mimi awie and imran if im not wrong,
they come it just became even more noisy hahaha
wth kan
hahah then i ask hanna to text iika if she wants to go home with me,
then she lembab malas nk tunggu body aching everywhere, head home.
reached home on lappy then no fucking mood already -.- dont wish to tell.
i swear everytime you know, gahh wth la eh nvm
i dont care,
have a nice day to myself, im a selfish jerk what.
am i tell me, since the day you met me have i been selfish ?
think only about myself only.
hellloo finally updating huh
but not much though .
been feeling so sad this week, gotta stay strong just to fake it to mates yeahh
but nvm i will be okay i think on the outside? yeah
fucking shit hate myself so much haha
everythings just normal, friends like drifting away from me.
yeahh
so today fridayyyy me zuzu, aie went to watch ong bak 2 that just release yesterday
how cool the movie is, you should watch we three now practicing so can be the best fighter hahaha
yeahh gosh, my heart says not to update. because i dont want you people to know how i feel inside, i should keep it inside and just suffer alone. yeahh
i sound like a girl -.-
whattt a bitch gahh
goodnight fellow mates
misses alot of people
Happy new yearr,
though i cant see whats so happy about it for me,
how i spend it? it was fun and okay to me.
Met up with hannabestie first, then walk to penin buy some cigarattes
sheesh i was in a sad bad mood kind of way i think, went off to marina
chill for fucking fuck sake there's alot of couple, freaking irritating.
i hate it, shit feeling makes people cry only.
saw fahfa at mini steps, we chilled oh yeah hanna bought me starbucks caramel frappe (:
thank you bestie love ya much
well after that i had to go off to sentosa, sab zeeko nyemi cweka ask me to spend it with them this year as for last year i didnt, so yeah i said okay obviously i thought of spending with SOMEONE! but nvm maybe im so low class not even a ugly bitch would want me. okay so out of the topic, hanna met up with lucy fahfa followed hanna to marina barage.
then okay im at sentosa palawan towers, saw sab hugged her she hug tight siot, whatever hug nyemi then sat down with faiz, it was the starting of the night, siloso beach party have started haa how fun mannn
i went down for awhile then went back up to smoke shit i saw sab and the rest drinking already im like its too early 0.0, then after that sab was in pain
gahh what shit laa why go and drag mcm siak ah, but nvm i took care of her, put some minyak on her body(stomach) they mix this raspberry vodka with orange juice, they called it screwdriver, i have no idea why they call it that but its nice as hell.
so yeahh muse came along he brought 3 anchor along he drank one can, so do i i think
haha whatever im gonna shorten the story, bla bla bla then got one part of the night so entertaining, bangla came to the spot where we are and there were some friendly matreps and which my cousin is there too haa shit ass the bangla tried to steal something from them hahah! then kena whack like fuck the matts all shouted "EHH BUDAK MELAYU KITE KASI SAMA BANGLA LINCA!!" wth -.- im the malay over there i just watch haha there were like what 10 bangla or more over there they could take them, but they choose to run and leave one behind he kena rabak, he fell on the ground and stuff got kicked punch nailed at gosh so harsh sia this bastards but it was kinda worth it to watch hahaa,
so yeah bla bla bla then about what time i was pissed then okay, zeeko and i drink
then my cousin brought up absolute then i took about what 15 to 20 shots of it ahh but was okay. so thats it i spend my new year with my old favourite mates and still my favourite, for they listen to my problem and keep bugging me to tell them on that day, i told EVERYTHING. they know i have some problems and wish to help in a way yeahh
so that day i drank alot i think let me list down?
okay? haha
BEER: baron, tiger, anchor
Liquor:raspbery+orangejuice=scredriver(lamesiolname)and 15 to 20 shots absolute vodkas(RAW)
brag much.. well whatever took 963 home with cweka and sab, i miss my stop so drop at bp with sab hugged her told her to take care of herself.
bus back 184 slept like a baby in both buses
got home i slept the whole day, granny went home already god look after her please dont let her go so soon, pray much for her to live longer.
now im all alone in this stupid house -.-
my parents are not home never will be dont know when will they be at home hais
):
nvm not as if anyone care -.-
