Things are falling apart for me again
is it me, i was understanding right? i mean it must be me
gosh you said things was complex before your now deprived im understanding your situation it sucky and hard to manufactured
but dont take back what you said and ever regret
the day 'we' made that 'promise'
we promise to stay close no matter what, not the part that we will be together
i said we let fate and god decides

you said you like me and your happy when im in presence next to you, that felt good for the first time someone said to me sincerely.
this things are not in place right now
its not suppose to happen, i dont know whether to regret bumping into you or appreciate it
yes ive destroyed your life in a way but the thing is that your happy, i did made you happy right
i miss those lullabies talks at night
where i put you to sleep and laugh in the middle of the night where i have to turn on the tv so loud so my parents wont think im nuts.
i ever thought of marrying you after 7 years from now,
you change my perception of girls, but now its coming back to me and making me think no girls can ever make me happy, im just a stone a rock a passerby who makes people happy
i should start paying people to do that,
what makes me happy more than ever is you talking to me
theres no need for you to go MIA from me, that just pierce my heart through
im just laying in my house or zeeks place.
i should have let things stayed the way is, because i know this kind of thing would happen
its really harsh yes i know but you gotta be selfish sometimes to archeive what you want
and you my dear you are selfish sometimes, but in a good way
your honest but lie for a good reason,
i can know when you lie, i just kept quiet and let it be cause i know you did it with a good reason
what can i do now to convince you to stay and not being away from me.
being together doesnt mean your in love, love comes when you know your happy that is love
love is the world love is in every other people
everyone deserve to be happy and loved,
love yourself before loving others is not entirely bullshit
if you love yourself and yet still you cant be loved and share your love with someone
means your not in love with yourself enough?
and when you know and the person itself tells you that he/she likes you
gosh im so confused with life
i wanted to just go suicide mode and just get raped by satan, i know its not worth it
but you YOU are worth it, eventhough your a fuck up last time, good to know you change maybe that is what i like about you most its where you know when to change your life in instant,
gosh happy moments will last forever with gaps in between,



we can make it work if you want it to work,
being together is not the option for now but for you to stay beside me is the best option i could ever think of now,

and your little sis (m- - - ) im sorry to drag you in a way,
sorry if we cant meet, we were suppose to meet 11 december 2009 , but things are like this now i dont know whether its still on



P.S your just too scared about what people might think of you
fame isnt everything smallest things are



i love you and goodbye if your going away
many hugs and kisses for you <3