12 July 2009

Saturday.....



woke up with a fucked up nightmare, i just cant belive that you said its over but i just want you back so badly, because it wasnt me i swear ): hais

i thought of finding you when im out, so met up with besties told them what happened and the real thing that your yet to know, for it was not me it was this particular person who spoilt it. My love for you is like real and not about giving an eye to that person for this person(you know who)

went out at 4, meeting mother at lot 1 because my stupid brother pissed me off by taking my clothes but guess what when i reach there mother was not there she said she was already otw home i was so fucking pissed off and i cant take it i almost cried its not because only that, it felt like my life is falling apart all over again.
i didnt wanna be late because hanna and zuzu was waiting, sigh with a big dissapointment in life i manage to have a smirk for them.

i told them im gonna search for you but i didnt had a phone, i said nvm singapore is still small i can find her, accomponied zuzu doing her project at SMU by taking some pictures,
rain started to fall from nowhere in my heart and mind is like rushing and telling me that how the fuck am i gonna find you, i was so pressurize by it i went to bugis to dhoby to smu again went to raffles almost went to every place that you could ever hangout, eventhough its raining i didnt care. After all that i just went to citylink, met up with shahfiq faris ginos, called zuzu and yeah bla bla with great dissapointment i didnt found her, saw alipo then we talked and stuff, i called you.....then after that txt you can we meet, you said cant meeting some other people sorry, i understand so it was quite important to me that i wanted to see you, but i dont know whether its important to you to even see my pathetic face . hais

i just like ran all over the place like a marathon, i just need to explain things to you. i cant bear to lose someone again:/

i dont want to let it go, for what EVERYONE HAS BEEN TELLING ME i hate that i HATE THAT, i can do something about it .



i still love you "JVW"
- posted by ParkerJunior ♥ at 7/12/2009 01:06:00 PM

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