hmm im feeling really REALLY REALLY! fucking pissed OFF!
sad
depress
alone
mentally mind fucked
deceived
betrayed
mixed up
fooled for
majorly jealous
envy
negativity
negative future thoughts
last of all really feel like dying,




i dont know if anyone cares or what sheesh, my life of 2009 ? sucks! big time!
everyday i feel like crying, well before you mofo's spamm my bloody tag board, im telling you guys can cry, dont tell me you dont cry
assholes -.-

i just dont feel like love exist already
people want LOOKS! NICE FIRM HOT PECS! BLOODY PERFECT FACE!
i dont get it
why love has perish from this bloody world -.-
all i see is, wrong guy + insecure girl = got fucked and laid bla bla
but has a guy who have a crush on her for a long time, he was happy before that because the girl was giving him HOPES! and HINTS! that she loves him

after that plus minus thing
HERE COMES THE BEST PART EVERRRRRRRRR
Girl: oh im sorry we were just meant to be friends, maybe in the future
Guy said yeah maybe in the future

A month later...

Guy: Gosh this girl has made him so happy (:
Girl 2:"dating": I had a superb time with you
Guy: oh i did too (:

1 month 2 weeks later

Guy: what if i say that i love you hmmm what would you say
Girl 2: hmmm what if i say no?
Guy: 'Gasping with negative thoughts'
Guy: errr then no ah
Girl 2: what if yes
Guy: 'confused' then yes ah
Guy said what would you say?
it was 2.30 am in the morning
(webcamming with big smile on each faces)
Girl 2: yeah i do too (:
in this guy thought he was like "OMFG no way did she just said yes?"

several months past after all they've been through together
cuddled in movie theatres which the guy never had the chance to do it with anyone. spend one night on the bed kissing through out the night
which the guy never had experience before either.
.....

......
.... things started to change,

Guy texting: heyy baby i hope you have a good day and goodluck on your presentation(:

Girl 2: ............*no reply*

before that happen she said she cant msged much so he left a message for her to show that the guy have some concearn for her.

Guy: heyy its been two days, you havent replied me, are you okay?
Girl 2: ........... *no reply*

the guy started to feel hurt that she cant even spare him one message
and day by day passed, he had this feeling that she had left him stranded on the far end of the road.

Guy texting: if you dont love or even like me anymore please have the guts to tell me, so i wont be hurt so much.........

Girl2: ............. *no reply*

Guy went to over a week of depression after finding out from one of his friend that she has left him without even telling,

Guy Friend: hey i just asked Girl 2 whether she is still contacting Guy,
Guy: what what what?

he was anxious to know very much,

Guy Friend: she said no, i told her that doing that its not healthy you know
Guy: ...... sigh nvm okay thanks so much

Guy just dropped, he just fell on the floor without even noticing
thinking how cruel a girl could be that mean,
he just went beserk, trying to act nothing so his friend wont know so much but when he himself needs comfort.

he just went flat on everything, EVERYTHING

Guy started to get back to the Girl before this after thinkin so much that maybe he regretted leaving that he ever loved for almost one year plus and known for 2 years.
he thought giving it another chance maybe she is just ready this time

but instead no,


5 months ago,

Guy : why cant we be together? what i dont have that you want?

Girl : its not that urghh hais
Guy: then what??
Girl: i just want to have fun being single again, after what happen to me and my ex
i might not be in a r/s for a year or two

Guy: *gasp* sigh i can wait for you, you know
Girl: why cant we be just friends?
Guy: but you confessed to me that you loved me?your the one who said it yourself i didnt forced

Girl: i love you as a friend

Guy: *burst into tears non stop* *pissed off* * thinkin that this is just no happening she cant love me just as a friend*

Guy : ....... arghhh whatever.

Girl: haiss





Well the rest i cant tell you, i feel like crying typing this story -.-
anyways
haha if you felt what i just typed please tag my board and tell me what does the guy deserve? or what does the girl deserve?
or even better, Who is at fault?